Went and got my license, so now at least I don't go to jail for driving. I thought I'd have more fixed by now, and Judy is slow to recover and her bitch attitude surfaces too much, and Alex needs to be forced to deal with what is expected of him and she won't force him cause she doesn't want the fight and yet fights me and steals my authority and undermines me and doesn't see it. At least now I can get him in school. Judy might get better in time when it comes to this, she just won't take a stand with Alex and come down hard on him, and it is what he needs.
Steph is in bad shape. As I expected the sheets are gone, and her dog is a pain in the ass to have here, but I'm going to try one more time in three waves.
First, now that I found her and she came here, and even though she's still making excuses, if she doesn't come around I'm going to trace her down again, get her to come over, and steal her keys so she's stuck here, and get her brother over here as well. Her friend Nina is afraid for her, so I can get some help there as well.
Steph after that is maybe doing what her dad tried and Marchman acting her. But we'll try that ourselves first, and I need Kenny in on it as well or it might be doomed.
I gave her the condition that she comes to us every day to check in, and think now that she sees even though she fucked up we're there, she might give it a good effort for once. She's used to having people bail on her, but I can't let that happen to her. I am sure that if she stays on this path she's on she will suffer for it, and that asshole she's with will get her involved in crime, and she'll lose a lot, but you can only help so much before you just have to let people fall. No one walks until they want to, and dead weights is not a good burden for anyone.
Judy is still down on the couch more than she is on me. I want a woman who will sneak up behind me, grab me, and lead me to her body, and acts like she wants to share love and pleasure with me.
I'm NOT going to be nice until she does anymore. It is unfair to give with noting reciprocated. I've expressed how I feel about it, and remain denied. She says she loves me, but to me doesn't show it. And yes, it takes sex as part of that.
That other thing is getting Alex right. Now I can get him to school, so now we will search for one.
People owe me money. Diane needs to start paying more, but I expect that in dribs and drabs.
Zoe is slow to pay, but was right on time today with $60 she owed me which is exactly what my driving restoration cost me. I need to talk to Henry as well, and Darryl and Gerald can't find work. The economy sucks right now. I'm owed three grand almost.
But at least now I feel safe about getting around...
that should start fixing things.
Alex COULD have been back in school, but stupid ass didn't follow through on the McKay Scholarship so now I can't pay for school, homeschool won't work I don't think (know) and I refuse to send him back to Stillwell, even if it means catch up. Alex is smart, he just needs the will and confidence, and Judy won't enforce and is unable to encourage it. She gives him false praise and calls great what is average. Praise should be real and honest, and not given for poor or substandard work, but for real effort.
Her self-defeating attitude has made him avoid challenges and fear or deny critical and honest assessments of his efforts. Life will be hard on him, so I have even if he hates me for it and I fight with her every day, because what she has done and does is killing his ability to succeed in the world. No one will hand him things later on. I wish I were able to work and earn as I was once able, and didn't have someone who fucks up everything I work to create and knew how to be supportive and helpful. I shouldn't have to be a nursing home caretaker over lazy and stupid, and I am sick of the excuses and "things will change-watch my fire" speeches.
It is old.....